changing my mind
Sometimes I use my writing to get my mind right. Coming from a champion lineage of depression and addiction, this is something I have to do on a regular basis, when my thoughts tend toward the negative and I am not being kind to myself. When negativity arises, I neuroplasticize. In other words, I change my mind. To do this, I simply write at the top of my page “thank you.” And then I begin filling the page with words and images and thoughts and things that I am grateful for in my life, from coffee to Oliver and Lucy to the warmth of sunlight through the windows in a cozy coffee shop. And it works. From the time I begin writing until the page is stuffed with words and color, I am able to alter my own emotional and mental state.
I often tell my students that life is not easy, being human is not easy. It wasn’t meant to be. But it’s how we navigate our humanness–bringing ourselves back when we fall out of grace–that heals our souls and makes us powerful.
As the sun slants away from summer and the days shrink and the darkness grows, we must to tend the light and warmth within. Next time you notice your thoughts leaning toward the negative, give yourself the gift of ten minutes, a blank page, and colorful markers, and pull out the grace within so you can see it and feel it. Again and again. This is the work of life.